Positive?

When I found out about this whole deployment thing I was terrified of what the future held for Alberto and I, I was unsure of what to think, I was panicing even when my husband was still in the states. When it came down to me driving him to the airport I was over powered by postivity and happiness, I really couldn't wait to . I figured it had finally begun, no more talking about it or thinking about it,it was here. I thought ok, now his is there and time will fly by.... I tell you, I prove myself to be blonde everyday. The days have gotten longer!! And time just creeps by, I wake up all night long, and that's even after I take a vicodin. Im not a pill popper or anything, I had a bad tooth removed, so im in a lot of pain:( Anyway, after about a week and a half of the positive go lucky attitude, I had a melt down, it was horrible.. And what started it was so stupid, I have been watching the housing market, and for some reason that day it hurt. I realized I missed my apartment, I miss my husband, I miss our perfect little lives. Thank God Burrito called me that day, it made me feel so much better. But the truth is I can't always be positive, my days aren't always going to be fun and full of things to do. Even though I fill the brim of the hours in a day, with stuff to do, I can't say it helps time go by any faster..
I have bought a gym membership since Burritto left though, I can say that helps me out a little bit, but not much, at least I will look smoking out when the hubby returns...LOL
I am terrible at this blogging and journaling, I will admit it... I have so much stuff to write about, but also forget to get online :{!
I want to end this blog by saying congrats to Stephanie, on She who Waits.. Im so happy that your hubby is gonna be home soon! Congrats truely!!